going home

Date: Sunday, January 29, 2006
Time: 2:17:00 PM

cny

happy chinese new year!

wishing for......

lots and lots of angpows and...
lotsa nice food! =)

ENJOY everybody!

came across these lyrics and thought i like it
these jus remind me of stupid AX

Behind These Hazel Eyes
by Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself

Date: Sunday, January 22, 2006
Time: 7:24:00 PM

chinese new year is approaching

time seems to be passing really slow.
though chinese new year is jus around the corner, i feel that i still have to wait for ages before i can actually pack my stuffs and go home. it's been really tiring. i shld really learn to stop saying things that can bring down my own spirit. i miss, and i need the long gone positive attitude that i used to have. still remember not long ago when i was in jc1, i was so positive that i dint even complain a bit eventhough the workload was so terrifying. and now is the time that i really need to stay positive and perceive everything in an optimistic manner. or else everything, including the future will stay as bleak as it is.

went to cornerstone with wui jia today. and i was really overjoyed. it's been sucha long long time since i felt the peace. going for IGNITES from next week onwards and im sure that it will be inspiring and uplifting.

gonna have complex numbers test on this coming thurs and i really have no confidence in doing well at all. i even had hard time completing the assignments, how can i be sure that i will do well in the test? it's easy to say that as long as u are willing to work hard, evrything will turn out to be fine. but what i learnt from past experiences is that that's not always true. not applicable to me always though.

what i really need now is someone telling me that i can do it, that everything will go fine this year. i need to be instilled the kind of positive attitude and optimism that i used to have, and to stay as hopeful as before.

i know this sounds really despondent but i'm rather sure that most j2s are feeling this way at this point of time. jus hope that everyone will keep up the spirit. dun let it die out before the critical exams. yup, and dun stress ourselves out too early, save everything for later.

yup, byesss.

Date: Saturday, January 14, 2006
Time: 2:58:00 PM

school

it's been two weeks since school reopened. and i realised that i have never been so tired before. it's something really strange.
not that i have done a lot, neither were the lessons tough. think it's jus because i need time to adapt to school life again. waking up early in the morning, paying attention during lectures and tutorials, rushing out assignments in the middle of the nights and mugging up for tests. all these have become so unfamiliar to me after year end holiday. and it feels really funny to be so occupied and busy during weekdays, and at the end of the week, u find urself so damn useless slacking around cuz u have finished what u are supposed to complete during weekdays.:-)

talking about school. there arent any changes actually. lectures, tutorials and the tiring pc lessons. the only change is that we have a few new tutors this year. and coincidential enough, all the teachers teaching core subjs are males. and we've got one new gp tutor. heard from people that he's experienced and stuffs. but i jus dun like the idea of cracking irrelevant crude jokes in class. that's jus not the way. surprisingly some of my classmates are ok with it. sighs.

after two weeks of lessons, im really looking forward to chinese new year. missing mommy and babie. however, there's high possibility that i wun get to go back to my hometown kampar. and im really missing my long lost frens over there. i miss the jokes, laughters and the kind of long gone craziness that we used to share.

cheerios.

Date: Sunday, January 1, 2006
Time: 2:21:00 PM

happy new year!!!

jus a very short update to record down what happened on the last day of 2005. it was both enjoyable and fun. ;)
dad brought us to BESTMART for new year countdown. it was quite stupid cuz we like waited there for almost one hour to wait for the fireworks, and what we got to see in the end was some tiny bits of colourful papers flying in the air. sis was like gonna cry already. haha. that's so funny. fortunately, we still managed to catch a glimpse of the firework that was done by the nearby restaurant. the atmosphere was filled with happiness, and everybody was screaming and cheering looking at the fireworks...after that we went to the nearby hawker stall to have supper and by the time we reached home it was already 1 am...that was the 1st time in so many years that we went out so late at night.

going to go back to singapore later in the evening. i'm jus thinking that we are gonna be seniors this year, and there's no more honeymoon for us. it's really time to get serious about everything...including studies, ccas, as well as relationships for certain people.

alright, that's all.
happy new year!!!

cheerios.